Thoughts:

My standards must be too high.
Even if i get my gpa up how am i going to take an honors class?
Am i doing as well as i thought?
Maybe i should stay up all night. I don't want to be awake now. But i don't want to go back to the room anymore.
I don't want to go back to that room ever.
Stress is making me physically ill right now.
The only person i want to talk to is probably having sex right now.
Will i ever be good enough?
If i smoked pot when i got depressed would i be happier?
Did i really just think about pot?
My friends really were my anti-drug. I want my friends back NOW.

i'm not good enough.
Or at least not when depression kicks in.

Why can't I just be HAPPY.

Oh yeah.
Because i'm not good enough.

My brain is a peep in a microwave right now.

If I type a completely random title, don't hold it against me.

Hmmm.

I shouldn't have stayed up this late.

I kind of had another mini-disagreement tonight with a friend over facebook messages, and so I didn't want to just be like "I'm going to bed. Bye." and leave during that... I would feel really guilty. But I was soooo ready to just go to bed.

And then I started watching "The Graduate" but I started 15 minutes late, and I basically saw what I had seen the first time when I started late. But I sort of kind of ignored it a little bit while I was chatting with a friend, and so I was in and out of it anyway. So I was just stupid confused there at the end, and I just need to watch it from beginning to end sometime.

And then I was all "I should burn a CD (because the ones I tried yesterday FAILED.) and take a shower!" But I realized that I'd rather take one in the morning, and then my hair wouldn't be all stupid in the morning. So I burned the CD anyway to prepare for tomorrow. And then I was like oooooh camera! Oooooooh makeup! Oooooooh photosphotosphotos. Then I discovered the camera I was using (not the super nice one) had a macro setting. I took pictures of my eyes.

And now it's 2:30 am and I have nothing to show for myself. I have done nothing productive tonight. And I need to be working on this house more and more as summer approaches. Especially if Liz is going to be living here.

Luckily I started in the kitchen before the tea party, so that really wasn't as bad as it used to be. But it needs to be better. Especially with the cockroaches roaming around in there now. They seem to be getting bigger every year. I absolutely hate them. Because it's not like I'm really LIVING in the house every day keeping the bugs out. I can't help them. But they still look horrendous and I need them OUT.

And now I feel a bit woozy. Lack of sleep woozy. And if it were 3 hours later I would just take a trip down to the Harris Teeter and get some food and an energy drink to keep me up. But I think I may be able to go to sleep now and still be able to get up for Patrick's game tomorrow. I don't knoooooow.

BUT. If I miss it. I can work in the garden.

I still don't know.

He'll have plenty of games later. But I won't have plenty of time to plant these things. I need to get on that garden stat.

Hmmm.

Matisyahu - Youth

"Young man control in your hand

Slam your fist on the table

And make your demand

Take a stand"

...really?!

"u rite"

Has our grammar online really become SO bad that we can no longer post sentences without completely disregarding proper English?
So many things are wrong with that sentence.
u. That would be "you" (or in this case "You" as it is the beginning of the sentence.) Are is completely disregarded. If it is difficult enough to spell out "you" then why in the world would you take the time to write "are?!" And rite. This one pisses me off about as much as all the rest (see list below) and it isn't even grammar. It's spelling. Is it really so difficult to spell "right." Honestly. That's one of the first crazy things they teach in your kindergarten spelling lesson - IGHT = Ite. Light, fight, bright, RIGHT. Not so hard. But apparently it is.

Further annoyances:
your/you're/ur/(Occasionally I've seen u'r. Way to look stupid while trying to look smart, dumbass.)
there/they're/their
our/are (No, are is not plural possessive. Thank you.)
to/too/two
should of (This phrase is totally incorrect. You fail.)

There are more.
But I'm super tired.
I'm done.



But on a sidenote:
I seriously fucked up my foot today. The bruise is AWFUL and it's swollen a bit. Not so good. And quite painful, too. Booooooooooooooo. :/